As I have been preparing myself for 40, I have spent almost a month reflecting on my journey to here. Sure I could talk about all that has happened since Pressing Pause at 39, but it’s more than that.
Preparing for 40 has been about reflecting on the overflowing, ever reaching love of God.
In every season, He was present. He was in the moving, revealing the masterpiece He placed within me even when my brokenness seemed to scatter me into pieces. Moving beyond the comfortable places, taking me further than I was able to see. Moving through the depths of pain to bring me higher with Him.
In every season, He never let me go. He was in the stirring, releasing the grips of fear and pain. Even when I failed to acknowledge him, even when I let Him go time and time again, His love held on. Even in the waiting, His love was restoring, healing and renewing. I only had to be still, to be in the moment completely overwhelmed by the tenacity and gentleness of His love for me.
In every season, He had a plan. He was in the leading, preparing in the hidden spaces a life worth experiencing. In the difficult, the beautiful, and even the mundane moments, He kept on guiding my steps. He has been committed to me desiring to see the best He put in me fulfilled even before my existence. My loving God was preparing my heart not just for now, but for the days ahead.
Walking into this new decade, I reflected on the decades I have left behind — parts of the journey that have bought me to this place. The parts of the journey I didn’t realize would give purpose in my testimony. The tiresome parts of my journey I thought would surely break me. The parts of my journey that I have walked with some pretty phenomenal people.
Through it all, I can BOLDY say it was GOD who bought me here.
So, I wasn’t so surprised that one song kept popping up in my spirit—“You’ve been so faithful”.
First introduced to me at 20 while I was a member of the gospel choir back in my undergrad days, it’s been years since I have heard this song. Little by little the lyrics kept finding a way into my day.
As I look back over my life
I can see how Your love has guided me
Even though I’ve done wrong
You never left me alone
But You forgave me
And You kept on blessing
This I recall to my mind
Therefore I have hope
It’s because of Your mercy that we are not consumed
Because thy compassions fail not,
They are new every morning
Great is Thy faithfulness
Great is Thy faithfulness
Oh yes! Looking back, I see how Jesus Christ was there all along–loving me, holding on to me, guiding me, because Great is HIS faithfulness.
This is MY 40!
Grateful and thankful,
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