Standing there, I stared at her.
The roundness in her cheeks. The fullness of her hips. The belly. Ugh, the belly. I saw her, and she was me. Staring at my husband, I said words about my body I would never say to a friend.
That morning, I changed clothes ten times. Angrily, pants after pants were thrown to the floor as if to punish them for fitting incorrectly. Everything felt wrong.
At that moment of not being able to fit any of my clothes, I realized the same insecurities plaguing me as a young girl who constantly tried to hide behind masks was there. Why? I thought I was past this. I didn’t know this was a part of me anymore.
C’mon. For the past year, I stopped wearing all shapewear. My mind was made up that I would embrace the beauty of my body—all the curves and the stretch marks. Instead of waiting for the ideal weight, I made up my mind to love my body now. No more hiding. No more masks. No more waiting until.
Yet, here I was faced with all too familiar thoughts. How could this be? I thought I was purged of all the unhealthy seeds sown in my mind of my value, my self-worth, my body image, and my beauty. Surely, at this stage, I was not still going through this.
But I was.
I was back to face the enemy inside of me. I heard those voices of people who have criticized my weight and my body shape. Those who tried to define my worth and my body image. The voice of insecurity. But this time, I had the weapon of truth to silence the lies. Even though those thoughts popped up in the moment, I made a choice to take those thoughts captive. I would NOT live in bondage to insecurity. Instead, I would listen to the one voice that mattered, the voice of my Heavenly Father.
When we allow insecurity to attach to us, it becomes a leech.
1. Insecurity drains us of our praise.
“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” Psalm 139: 14
2. Insecurity drains us of our purpose.
“Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations.” Jeremiah 1: 5
3. Insecurity drains us of our faith.
“But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.” Hebrews 11: 6
4. Insecurity drains us of our worth to Christ.
“God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life” John 3: 16
For everything that insecurity may try to do, God’s word conquers. But I have to choose to speak the truth of God’s word instead of words of insecurity when these emotional moments occur.
Sure, I now have a workout plan, and it works. More importantly, I am working out being more rooted in my praise for Christ, the purpose He has for me, my faith in Him, and knowing no matter the situation or the pounds, He loves me and wants to use me for His glory.
Now, for some of you, your insecurity may not be a weight issue, but whatever it is, hold on to your praise, your purpose, your faith, and God’s love.
Awesome message for me. Shsre thus great read that meets so many needs!
Love this message.
Amen girl. Thank you for putting these feeling some into words.
Mamie L. PackMarcia
Oh, thank you Marcia!
I so enjoyed this and I also enjoy following you on Instagram. Very insightful.
Mamie L. PackTeri
Oh, thank you Teri!!! I enjoy following you as well.
Love this! Simple, graceful reminders. I’m grateful to be more accepting of myself as I get older. Becoming my own friend.
Such great and simple reminders to love ourselves. Thanks you for this on a Monday morning!
Mamie L. Packthediynuts
I love this piece. It is honest and raw. And I feel you. I have been struggling with my weight a lot lately. I have worked so hard on myself and love who I am, but really hate my body. Thank you for the lovely inspiration!!
Mamie L. Packsuburbangoddessmom
Sadly, a lot of women do. We forget how strong, capable and beautiful our bodies are.
This really puts weight gain into perspective.
Mamie L. PackKatja
It is all about perspective!
Thank you for sharing and great verses.
This is absolutely wonderful! I was a chubby little girl that turned into an anorexic teenager. God saved me from these strongholds and I ended up at a very healthy weight for many years as a young married adult. Having my first baby wrecked my body and left me VERY overweight. I went through these feelings and struggles and God definitely taught me everything you are saying here. I learned that I can’t be focused on my body and what I think is wrong with it… I need to PRAISE him for making me! For making my body capable of giving life to a child…. for making me beautiful to my wonderful husband… for making me strong and able to work and care for my family. I learned this love all over again in a new way (because I had already learned a bit when God freed me from my anorexia). I’m SO glad that God taught me this lesson when I was fat because battling cancer not much longer after that caused me to lose every extra pound I had. Now I’m frail and bonier than I’ve ever been before and it’s a whole different set of body image issues, but I’m so glad that my joy isn’t found in being thin! It’s just found in Christ. Our bodies can vary so much throughout seasons and it’s not something we can put our identity in, otherwise we will be lost. Thanks for sharing your message!
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